So yeah. Here's my
story.
The first time i was
sexually assaulted i was say 3 or 4, not in school yet, i was out alone & sitting
under a tree waiting for my brother to get back from his classes. No one
around. Until this stranger comes takes me to a public restroom and molested
me. I was distraught. Came back home, told no one. 'Cause i didn't know it was
an assault. I thought it was normal.
Then i was in 3rd
grade. These youngster guys from street corner were 'friends'. I used to talk
to them & just that. Suddenly they're in my school, i was happy to see
'friends'. One of em made me sit on his lap and his fingers were in the wrong
places on me. It pained after he let me go. They weren't allowed on school
premises after that.
The next time i was
sexually harassed was by my father's friend who btw still is a friend
who comes around. He put his arm around me reaching me in the boob. I was like
what the fuck! Young and naive i was. Never told my parents 'cause Indian
parents don't talk such things. It still disgusts me even today that he has a
daughter & that I've to see that ugly face & fake greet that
perv.
There was this period
of time from 9th grade till 12th. I used to take the same route from school to
home every day. This perv from school, wearing school uniform, on his bicycle,
followed me, found me alone & flashed me. Wound talk dirty & i would
just walk as fast as my legs could take me. He would cut across my path in his
bicycle, dominating & trying to scare me. I never took that route
after & would avoid being alone on the road. I hope he's miserable
now.
Many strangers whose faces i didn't see &
I'll never see again. In buses, on the road. Alone and crowded.
This guy i fell in
love with for the first time. We went out a few times. He already had a girlfriend but
instead of avoiding me he took me out. To a movie once & harassed me. So
like if a girl likes you & you can't commit but you're only trying to be
friendly & not hurt her, is not exactly an excuse to err.. harass her? She
set herself up to me, she came to me, i was only being friendly & nice =/=
is not the same to 'so i can harass her'.
Then this last one, the narcissistic serial molester, is first
of all sick in the head. Narcissist, sociopath, asshole who lacks empathy big
time. Yes i was obsessed with him. That let him molest me. He doesn't regret
it, own up to it, sorry or
guilty about it 'cause he thinks it was not wrong or that it wasn't his fault.
Flaky, manipulative and sick absofuckinglutely sick in the
head. Traumatized me for 4 years. Still healing.
